The reactions to my post have been pretty virulent. I know I’m far from being the only one that was upset by the implied content of the artwork in question. But I can only address the negative comments I’m receiving. And it’s triggering my depression, which is formidable even on a good day.

I know, I need to let things slide off me. This is true. But I, like many of you, have trouble doing that. Like many of you, things that happen online seem really important. They affect us a lot. So while I work on that, I’m throwing it out there that I could use a little kindness right now from those feeling kindly toward me.

I tried hard to express myself in that post in terms of MY perception and MY feelings. How things seemed to ME. My interpretation, my feelings, how I saw it. And all of that is valid, and none of that is hate. But I’m sure getting a lot of that right now.

Even people I mutually followed, who seemed like nice people, have sent me vicious comments attacking my mental health and saying I should unfollow them immediately because I “make them uncomfortable.” Which I find, like whoa, but ok. I, unlike them, understand that people have the right to feel strong emotions, and I respect their right to feel them without declaring them crazy or unbalanced. But I’d be lying if I said it didn’t shock and hurt me.

So, if I’m on your dash, and you generally find me interesting on it, or have gotten something out of our personal exchanges, I could REALLY use some positive feedback right about now. Because this is pretty horrible. And I don’t even allow anons.

So…got anything nice and supportive for me?

I won’t delete my blog. I may take a 24-hour vacation, or stay gone for a good long time. I don’t know. But there’s only so many attacks against my ship I can stand. And the personal attacks on me for my valid emotional reaction to what I personally interpreted, and expressed as a personal interpretation, of a provocative act are out of line. I will not be told my feelings are not valid, or are borderline religious cult. I will not be told that my reaction means I am emotionally unstable or crazy. Because I’m neither.

I will keep writing Sure Got a Dirty Mouth. I’ll be posting it regularly on A03, fanfiction.net, LJ, and the Sam/Dean Slash Archive. But I’m going to take a break from that too for a couple of days, so no Wednesday update. I will eventually come back just to post new chapters here. Probably. Well, we’ll see.

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^THIS IS TOO LONG

That’s not too long - he looks fantastic, well-groomed & totally hot.

^This.

His hair is GORGEOUS. He is gorgeous with that hair. SAMHAIR=GORGEOUS. Plus, Jared has stated he loves his hair that length, so let the man have the hair he wants, and stop pushing your preferences on him.

Thank you.

Signed, 

Fans of the Padahair 

Did you know that sixteen of the story chapter titles directly reference specific songs? (This does not count the other musical references, such as the chapters titled Lullaby and B Side.)

Which ones did you catch (A couple of them are fairly arcane)?